There are some things that seem to have such easy answers- if you are sick....go to the doctor, if you are fat...eat less, if you are tired....sleep, if you are sad.....drink. But, what if it's your brain? How do you re-program it? I pride myself on being smart, like street smart - I can figure most people out and just have this "sense" about people. Fact is, I probably THINK I am smarter than most of you in this regrad because I truly think I have this gift.
But, with a gift also comes responsiblity.
My issue with my brain is my chronic over thinking. Although I can figure things out and think rationally- when left alone with me and my brain I over think everything, get myself worked up, and self sabotage within seconds like a timebomb. I seem to think I know what people REALLY think - or what they REALLY feel despite what they tell me. Like if I ask you if you are thirsty and you say no, but yet I get a sense that you are a tad parched, I will not feel settled until you either let me get you a water or if you tell me to screw off.
Again, this is where audience participation comes in to play and most of you can think of where this has happened. I mean, I never get sensative and just try to cut my loses before getting hurt further! And I NEVER totally take a situation and assume it's a personal attack on myself. And, I NEVER try to push someone so far just so that they step up and reassure me that everything is going to be ok.
The problem is with this habit is that I can't figure out why I do it? Like no matter how many times I burn myself I just keep doing it. And it makes me really think, no matter how much I improve every aspect of my life, if I keep self sabotaging and pushing great people away - will I ever end up happy?
Now, over think that!
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